Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Rest in Peace Dad

Post dated

My dad has passed away. He wasn't doing so good the last couple weeks, but this was a shock and still is. The last week has been a blur. I am keeping this blog as an online journal. Which means I post about the good and the bad.
Here is how I found out:

On our way home from our mini girls vacation, Ashley gets a text (I forgot my cell phone) and I hear her gasp in the back seat.I asked her what was wrong and she didn't tell me. At first I thought it was personal and she didn't want to share it with her aunt. But when I turned around and looked at her the look on her face and her eyes told me it wasn't something good.
"Is something wrong with one of your friends?" I asked.
"No". she replied.
"Is something wrong with daddy?"
"Is my dad in the hospital?" Now I am panicking
I knew then "Is dead?" I ask in tears.
She shakes her head Yes and reaches for me.
That is how I found out my dad died today.

You may wonder why it was sent this way. My hubby works in the middle of nowhere. He rarely gets cellphone sevice, and sometimes his two way radio doesn't get single either. They had to send a trucker to tell him someone called to say that my dad died. He didn't want me to come home from my trip to messages on our machine. Ashley wanted me to enjoy the last 15 mins of our trip.

I came home made some phone calls. I had to find out where my dad was., what happened and my worst fear how long was he laying alone before some one found him.
First they tell me he is at the funeral home, I call there, they tell me he is back at the hospital. So I made arrangements with the funeral home to get him there and I will be there tomorrow to make the arrangements.

As it turned out my dad died of a heart attack. The coroner figured he got up and had a massive heart attack and died right there. He also figured my dad was there for a day or two before my sister found him.

No one checked on him or phoned him while I was away. Am I angry YES. Is it going to change anything No.

Wayne and I went to his apartment that night. We had to open up the windows and put the fans on. Wayne cleaned the carpet where my dad was found and I picked out his suit for the next day.

Rest in Peace dad.
I hope your pain is gone.
I am going to miss our daily phone calls and me sharing my life with you.
I love you dad.



  1. So sorry to hear about this, Tracy. :( My thoughts are with you.

  2. I am so sorry Tracy. I really feel for you and the pain that you are going through. I will be praying for you. It sounds like your dad was a very special man.

  3. Tracy, I'm so sorry to hear about your Dad. My thoughts are with you and your family.

  4. My thoughts and prayers are with your family. I'm so sorry for your loss.

  5. I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.

  6. I've been worried about you.

    My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family. I know how much you loved your dad.

  7. I'm so, so sorry Tracy. So very sorry.

  8. I am just now seeing your post of the loss of your father. As I can not say I know how you feel to lose a parent I do however know the depth of grief of the loss of a child. My son drowned August 10, 2007 in the Red River in Thackerville, Oklahoma. He was 20 years old and my only child. Please know my prayers are with you and your family. Please feel free to contact me anytime you need a person to chat with who is a close personal friends with grief.


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