Tuesday, June 1, 2010

My mom

Today would have been my mom's 63rd birthday.
I said would have been, as my mom passed away 5 yrs ago.
Isn't she beautiful. I love this picture of her, she looks so happy.

This is my mom on her wedding day. This is my dad (step, Oh I hate that word). She is so beautiful and he so handsome.

My mom was the "fun" mom. All my friends thought she was cool. And you know what she was. My daughters thought of her as the "fun" grandma. And you know what she was. My mom was fun and we were close. We would stay up until 3:00 in the morning playing cards and Yahtzee, even on a school night. When we were young, she would drop my older brother and I off at the movies to spend our allowance while she did errands.
I loved when she would just drop by for a visit because she was in town.
But I am not one of those people that when someone passes away they become a saint.
My mom had a prescription drug problem. And because of this I had to separate myself from her. I didn't want my kids to see the things I did growing up. I won't go into the details as everyone has a story and I am sure mine isn't much different.
Addiction sucks I tell you. I never knew how she would be when we went to visit. And because of this my children were robbed of their grandma and me of my mom.
Because of this addiction she was taken too early from us.
I was thankful that I did get to talk to my mom before she passed. We said that we loved each other, and she understood why I didn't visit.
My family thinks that she took too many pills before she went to bed one night and never woke up.

Hope you are at peace mom.
I love you.



  1. Oh My Goodness! I love old photos! She is beautiful! Sorry for your loss.

  2. Lovely Tracy. We've talked about this and I can identify. I was just chatting with my husband a couple days ago the effects of my Dad's addiction and how it effects me even now. He's coming out this summer and that not knowing what he'll be like just sucks.

    I know where you're coming from. Let's walk it out;p

  3. Your post brought a tear to my eye.

    Your mom was a beautiful lady. Actually, your resemblance to her (in her younger picture) is striking.

  4. OMG it's Wednesday morning at 9am here in the UK and I cried reading this. She truly was beautiful the pictures are a treasure. Glad she was such fun for you and your brother.

    Yet again, thanks for your comment on my blog, just wish more would leave comments after taking a look though....

  5. Tracy,
    So sorry for your loss, your mom was very beautiful.

  6. I am sorry for your loss, Tracy...both the first one and the one you suffered when she died. I appreciate your honest approach. These are wonderful photos!

  7. I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my mom when I was 13. She had her own issues also but was a lot like your mom. She was the mom who would everyone loved.

  8. Tracy that is sad..

    - but so glad you have fun memories of her

  9. Truly touching story- thank you so much for sharing.

  10. I'm so sorry for your loss. I hate drug abuse of any kind.

  11. Very nice tribute to your mom. What wonderful photos and memories you have.

  12. Very sweet post Tracy. You're right she's very beautiful. And you're right that addiction is just the worst, so very devastating, and always freedom from it within reach yet always just out of reach.

  13. Tracy,
    It is so hard to deal with a parent who is an addict. I can understand to a degree as my mom is a recovering alcoholic, and it took years for her and the family to come to terms with it. I'm glad that you were able to make your peace with her before she passed. What a nice tribute to her though.

  14. addictions do suck, I have experienced this within my own family but with alcohol instead.. one reason why i dont drink that much...

    the pictures are lovely :)

  15. Awww Tracy, I think your Mum was very beautiful and you look so much like your Mum too. So glad you were able to talk and share your feelings before you lost her.
    Tracy x

  16. Tracy your mom is beautiful and you look very much like her. I am lucky I still have my mom. What a week with her I tell ya. will post later on that.
    Can I ask what the color of paint is for your camp? It looks like the same color I just painted my studio wall. Either way it is very pretty.
    Hope you have a wonderful week being healthy. I need to get back to it. Junk all week with mom in the hospital. I will start creating in a day or so. I am pooped.

  17. (((Hugs))) Thank you for sharing that. Your mom was a beautiful lady and it is great that you have wonderful memories of her. Just never let the bad memories overshadow the good ones. Addiction does stink. So many families are affected by it.

  18. I'm sorry about your mom. Let it be a reminder that pretty much anyone can get in over their heads!! I bet she was pretty awesome other than that one fault she had.


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